SURVIVE

V1: I’ve been all broken, sad of myself.
Outwardly Heaven but inwardly Hell,
Askin’ for open but answerin’ shells,
I am weak. I am weak.

V2: Yesterday’s long gone, tomorrow’s too late,
Today is my swan song if I do not take
Control of my demons, they all have my face,
I am weak. I am weak.

CH: But I wanna change my mind.
I think that it is time.
How can I survive
If I’m not alive?

V3: I smoked with the notion that I could escape,
Got lost on the ocean of all that I drank,
Life in slow motion, so I didn’t have to think,
I am weak. I am weak.

V4: Been lookin’ for lovin’, but all I’ve done is pour
All of myself into holes in the floor.
I got in the boat, but I didn’t have the oars.
I am weak. I am weak.

CH: But I wanna change my mind.
I think that it is time.
How can I survive
If I’m not alive?

BR: Oh these years have had costs that I can’t afford to pay.
Gotta swallow the loss and try better today.
Friends who I’ve wronged with my silencing ways,
Love that has gone, ‘cause I turned it to waste,
Parents who’ve longed for their son to find peace,
Skies with no sun and no color just gray.

OUTRO: I wanna change my mind.
I think that it is time.
I wanna survive.
I am alive.